Bye, friends!

It's been a long time since I've written here. How have you all been? Good? Bad? Pretty neutral? 

I've started college. I don't really like it. I'm not doing what I want to be doing. 

I'm in love. He's my entire world and I would do absolutely everything for him. I'm never letting him go. 

I'm lost. Everyone knows what they're doing with their lives except for me. I feel like I'm being surpassed by so many that I'd previously been walking hand in hand with. 

This dA has a lot of memories, most of which I would like to forget. Which is why I'm leaving this account. I'm going to leave it here, to preserve some work, and the naive nature of my 2010 journal entries, but I will no longer be associated with "melodyluvs". I've outgrown it. I may start a new dA for writing and artwork I do for school (I am a graphic design major). 

I just wanted to say goodbye. This dA helped me keep in touch with a very good friend (Diz, I don't know if you're still out there, but I miss you to pieces) and helped me vent my feelings (see early 2012 journal entries) when I really needed to. It, however, leaves a sour taste in my mouth now as I remember the times I used it the most. I was unhappy, and I don't want to go back to such a sad time in my life when I'm fairly happy as of late. 

I might be lost, but I'm going to find my way. Although college does not seem like my place now, I'm sure I'll warm up to it. I'm nineteen years old. My mind goes from hot to cold, fast to slow, black to white every few seconds. I change. I have changed. I will change. 

Thank you all for sticking with me. Maybe you'll come across my new dA someday! 

I still don't know what I'm going to call it. 

-Kate